i was woken by her morning call. thought i could sleep a little while longer since it was unusually dark. i said unusually because normally by 8 plus the room is so bright that i have to cover my eyes with a pillow or my own hand or i'd just turn myself away from the window.
when i got out of the bathroom, there was a cup of water on the table for me. i was a little overwhelmed by her mom's kindness. she kept asking me why didnt i sleep a bit more. it was weird enough to have me alone with her mom in the house, let alone me sleeping by myself all the way till a more preferred time. i can never understand how dearie manage to do that with her mom belinda. it feels strange with a capital S.
i hate it when i have to think of a topic for conversation with ppl's parents. but her mom is easy to talk to. and most of the time she's the one leading the conversation. hence it makes my job so much more simpler. when i got into the car, her dad asked the same question again.
"why didnt you sleep more? i'm going jurong later, i can send you there."
"errr... uncle why didnt you tell me earlier???"
"you want to go back and sleep now?"
"har? no need lah. i'm already in the car."
funny old folks.
i was so stressed up yesterday that i got super irritated with myself. sometimes i do agree with dearie that with my time all so tied up with work, tuition and endless project work, i'm going to break down. its a matter of time only. so i decided on the spot that i'd go to her place and sink my ass into the pile of fyp work. thank god by 10 i manged to finish the quotes and transcription. credits go to the condusive study environment. hahaha.
well at least now i found someone to do part of the research for me and 2 helpers to do the data entry. i am such a lovable person... ppl love offering their help. hahaha.. ok i'm kidding. it's just that i used my power whinning skill. i figure when girls deh a bit, the others will get all soft hearted. POWER man. just like when i whined about not having cab home from town after 12, nice ppl will drive their honda down and send me back to ulu jurong west.
fortunate janet.
Saturday, January 27, 2007
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
16th Jan 07, Tuesday 2:07am
YOUR FLIGHT DETAILS :
09 May Singapore/Taipei (CI 662)
ETD : 1430 hrs ETA : 1910 hrs
09 May Taipei/Los Angeles (CI 008)
ETD : 2250 hrs ETA : 1935 hrs
09 May Los Angeles/Atlanta (DL 584)
ETD :2330hrs ETA : 0637 hrs
10 May Atlanta/Richmond (DL 4248)
ETD : 0745 hrs ETA : 0913 hrs
To make my leaving look more real than it already is....
freaking air tickets cost me $1793, hopefully it includes taxes. Coincidentally, i have a choice of coming back from LA or San frans. it makes planning even easier for me.
im thinking of learning driving in US.
everything is gonna be fineeeeeee.... ill just have to take in a deep breath and go to bed.
09 May Singapore/Taipei (CI 662)
ETD : 1430 hrs ETA : 1910 hrs
09 May Taipei/Los Angeles (CI 008)
ETD : 2250 hrs ETA : 1935 hrs
09 May Los Angeles/Atlanta (DL 584)
ETD :2330hrs ETA : 0637 hrs
10 May Atlanta/Richmond (DL 4248)
ETD : 0745 hrs ETA : 0913 hrs
To make my leaving look more real than it already is....
freaking air tickets cost me $1793, hopefully it includes taxes. Coincidentally, i have a choice of coming back from LA or San frans. it makes planning even easier for me.
im thinking of learning driving in US.
everything is gonna be fineeeeeee.... ill just have to take in a deep breath and go to bed.
Sunday, January 14, 2007
14th January 07, Sunday 3:55am
i am being unreasonable because i know ill get what i want in the end. even if i dont, someone would apologise for not making me happy.
what a bitch rite?
oh whatever. i dont really care cos i can afford to be a bitch.
on a totally different issue, i think i need to put more trust in ppl. actually i do trust them. its just that if you start telling ppl what to do, they might just mistake you as bossing around. so sometimes i'd rather save the trouble and do all the work by myself. which i find, at the end of the day, is silly. hmmmm.... i like working with these two girls who really understand how i function in the store. no matter how tiring they are, they'd still do their best so that all of us can go home on the dot. but sad to say, up to now there are only these two girls that behave that way.
what a bitch rite?
oh whatever. i dont really care cos i can afford to be a bitch.
on a totally different issue, i think i need to put more trust in ppl. actually i do trust them. its just that if you start telling ppl what to do, they might just mistake you as bossing around. so sometimes i'd rather save the trouble and do all the work by myself. which i find, at the end of the day, is silly. hmmmm.... i like working with these two girls who really understand how i function in the store. no matter how tiring they are, they'd still do their best so that all of us can go home on the dot. but sad to say, up to now there are only these two girls that behave that way.
Saturday, January 13, 2007
13th January 07, Saturday 3:55am
i know i broke a promise that i made years ago. i sort of did it deliberately. of cos i felt bad because i know i disappointed her for sure. but i only have one life and its too short for me to care about everything.
bumped into someone familiar when i was having supper at bukit timah with tracy and gladys. hmmmm....
life is ok in general. but somehow something is missing. perhaps its because xh is not around. i'm kinda like losing sense of direction. i just cant wait to finish fyp, finish sch and get my ass to US.
i'm feeling kinda high. seriously. dont think liquor could have this kinda effect on me. how strange.
my s.buddies are fun to hang around with. joven treated us some cakes. and as usual, i had a fun time teasing her. if C. pisses me enough, i promise that i'll go USQ when feb starts. cos USQ is damn fun. only interesting ppl like us work in USQ whereby ppl know one another. from bakerzin to tru to bnj to kindergolf to z-fenzing to the aunties and uncles in the foodcourt. hmmmmm.... i love usq. where do you get supper gathering for workers from dif companies within the same shopping center? only in USQ.
netball training was canceled. i miss my ipod.
bumped into someone familiar when i was having supper at bukit timah with tracy and gladys. hmmmm....
life is ok in general. but somehow something is missing. perhaps its because xh is not around. i'm kinda like losing sense of direction. i just cant wait to finish fyp, finish sch and get my ass to US.
i'm feeling kinda high. seriously. dont think liquor could have this kinda effect on me. how strange.
my s.buddies are fun to hang around with. joven treated us some cakes. and as usual, i had a fun time teasing her. if C. pisses me enough, i promise that i'll go USQ when feb starts. cos USQ is damn fun. only interesting ppl like us work in USQ whereby ppl know one another. from bakerzin to tru to bnj to kindergolf to z-fenzing to the aunties and uncles in the foodcourt. hmmmmm.... i love usq. where do you get supper gathering for workers from dif companies within the same shopping center? only in USQ.
netball training was canceled. i miss my ipod.
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
9th January 07, Tuesday 1:19am
too many things happended in that short one day... too many... saddening, tiring, shocking...
sunday was busy with working. there was an event and i had to help out with closing. i thought things could just go according to my plan but like i always said it never did. in fact, to my horrible surprise, it got worse. i was woken up in the middle of my slp to find her crying like i never have seen. i wish i could offer some sense of consolation. i wish i could ease her pain. i wish so much more, but seeing someone breaking down is one of the saddest things on earth. i felt helpless. i hate it. i did what i could.
end of story.
i never want to be in that situation anymore.
lack of slp.
sunday was busy with working. there was an event and i had to help out with closing. i thought things could just go according to my plan but like i always said it never did. in fact, to my horrible surprise, it got worse. i was woken up in the middle of my slp to find her crying like i never have seen. i wish i could offer some sense of consolation. i wish i could ease her pain. i wish so much more, but seeing someone breaking down is one of the saddest things on earth. i felt helpless. i hate it. i did what i could.
end of story.
i never want to be in that situation anymore.
lack of slp.
Thursday, January 04, 2007
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
3rd January 07, Wednesday 1:43am
its 2007 already.
i had fun while disappearing from my blog for the pass few days. booze and laughters were the only essentials to accompany me for the last few days of the year. of cos getting double pay for working was a bonus to it all.
to my bb, dont worry i was promtly, if not, very well taken care of for that few days. i absolutely didnt mean to play hide and seek game with you.
2006 had been a fine year for me. a little ups and downs. nothing big in particular. seriously nothing. now that i think hard about it, she's not in the picture at all.
perhaps when people get older, they tend to expect more. that's why every year end when they look back, they might be disappointed cos their expectations were not met. i was expecting an eventful and meaningful year too. if i lower my expectations, i might be able to say that i actually have achieved most of them. i made many friends. joining bnj, though there were tough working periods, was not a wrong move at all. i didnt do fantastically for all the papers, nonetheless i passed them all fairly well. if i remember correctly, i did not have a major quarrell with my mom! that's definitely worth celebrating.
i think i wanted to be happy for 2006. well happy is pretty subjective. at least i wasnt unhappy most of the time. except for the small depression that i got myself into during pa time when the break up happened.
one thing for sure, i have become a stronger person, am definitely proud of that. i have people telling me that i'm a tough person. haha. girly but tough.
oh before i even forget, i ended 2006 being a happy owner of an ipod movie player that has a storage of 30gb. buahahaha.
hopefully 2007 would be great for me. it will be great. cos i'm going to graduate and i'm going USA!
right now... i feel that i'm missing something.. wishing to be somewhere...
for the strangest reason, it actually puts a smile on my face.
i had fun while disappearing from my blog for the pass few days. booze and laughters were the only essentials to accompany me for the last few days of the year. of cos getting double pay for working was a bonus to it all.
to my bb, dont worry i was promtly, if not, very well taken care of for that few days. i absolutely didnt mean to play hide and seek game with you.
2006 had been a fine year for me. a little ups and downs. nothing big in particular. seriously nothing. now that i think hard about it, she's not in the picture at all.
perhaps when people get older, they tend to expect more. that's why every year end when they look back, they might be disappointed cos their expectations were not met. i was expecting an eventful and meaningful year too. if i lower my expectations, i might be able to say that i actually have achieved most of them. i made many friends. joining bnj, though there were tough working periods, was not a wrong move at all. i didnt do fantastically for all the papers, nonetheless i passed them all fairly well. if i remember correctly, i did not have a major quarrell with my mom! that's definitely worth celebrating.
i think i wanted to be happy for 2006. well happy is pretty subjective. at least i wasnt unhappy most of the time. except for the small depression that i got myself into during pa time when the break up happened.
one thing for sure, i have become a stronger person, am definitely proud of that. i have people telling me that i'm a tough person. haha. girly but tough.
oh before i even forget, i ended 2006 being a happy owner of an ipod movie player that has a storage of 30gb. buahahaha.
hopefully 2007 would be great for me. it will be great. cos i'm going to graduate and i'm going USA!
right now... i feel that i'm missing something.. wishing to be somewhere...
for the strangest reason, it actually puts a smile on my face.
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