28th February 06, Tuesday 9:37pm

the last day of the month of love.

tanning was great in the morning. wanted to go back to the pool after 214 tutorial.

its the time of the month again. pms. upsetness is filling me up. just when everything seems to be on the down side... (maybe its just me.. not everything.) can i have a shoulder to cry on?? sob sob.

28th February 06, Tuesday 12:46am

the smell... so distinct.
that was what shilei said.
ya. it really was.

special.

27th February 06, Monday 1:27am

the best love movie i've watched?

SWEET NOVEMBER



know what? i'd pay my life for that kinda love.

25th February 06, Saturday 12:07am

i've decided to just stop trying. argh.

the dream that i had this morning, though it did not exactly ruin my day, it made me feel sooooo fucking down the whole day. i just couldnt pull myself together to start working on the report. opps. i sense the start of procrascination. drowned myself in the world of tv programmes and junk food.

i'm worried. most likely i'm just being overly concerned. since there's nothing that i can do... i'd just pray.

everything will be fine... not just for myself.

24th February 06, Friday 12:09am

I want attachment clothes!!! i doubt anyone is in the right mind to sponsor me. oh well... i'm waiting for my mom to give me half a thousand. hahaha... ya i wish. i'm sorry that i'm not the G2000 kind. and please forget about this fashion. it never existed in my fashion dictionary. and esprit is on its way to extinction. ok maybe that's too strong a word to use. just say that i dont think i can get proper nice formal wear from esprit. i dont mind buying pants from there though. i mean those kind that i can wear out with my friends.

first choice on the list... in fact its the only choice. ZARA.


This top is damn nice lah! love the cutting. love the collar.... its oh soooooooooo cool. and i'm wearing this pair of white pants. totally a wrong choice. that's why i'm not showing it. haha. btw the top is $99 : )


the executive. its damn fucking good looking lah.


check that out! its not the same shirt though. its grey. the first one is brown. the cutting is different too... and its also $99 for this. oh the suit costs $239. thank you : )


ya the grey shirt. its really nice rite?!!!! i like i like. ignore the face please.


i've concluded that i dont look good in plain shirt. sigh. strip is the best choice. but shilei said i look ok in this black one... $39.

you know what? i dont buying all the shirts from zara. even if i'm not wearing them for attachment, i can wear them with my jeans. the combination is damn cool lah. and i love wearing shirt with jeans or denim skirt.

i'm going to bed now. screw the report. shall do it tmr.

dental appointment tmr. cant wait to get my braces off. but i've this intuition which tells me that i wont be removing it until next june? really... i just dont understand why the bottom row is moving at the rate that is worse than a snail. as for my top row, it'll be done in june or even earlier. i dont mind putting more power bands to speed up the process. but i'm sure my dentist is against the idea. whatever... patient is the key for this long agonising process.

another attachment interview tmr. not going to prepare myself. am just not in the mood to do so. i feel that daimlerchrysler is way much better than freely ltd. i want daimlerchrysler! sigh. cross my fingers and pray.

23rd February 06, Thursday 1:55am

i'm a nice girl. staying up til this time just to give someone a wake up call. haha. come on everybody... just say that i'm nice!!!!

ok i'm crazy. i'm out of my mind. in fact i'm feeling a little high now. estatic!!! haha... was jumping up and down while walking home from yirang's place. suan must have thought that i'm mad. oh whatever.

why am i on cloud 9?

haha... someone commented that i look cute being a butch! someone actually noticed me at yirang's bday. hahahahahahahahahaha...

i donno since when i started having this craze over being andro-ish... somedays i feel like wearing girlish stuff but somedays i feel like dressing as a butch... and somedays i just feel like being not too girlish or guyish.. its fun to play around with this whole role play thing : ) there are days when i feel like paoing siao mei mei and there are days when i feel like being pao-ed.

am absolutely insane.

oh well...i remember having this talk with yirang. in singapore, most people or rather those not straight ppl are soooo conform to this role thing. like a girly girl must be with a butch. what the??? who set the rule that i cant get attracted to girly girls simply because i'm more towards the femme side? screw u. ITS ALL JUST ABOUT ROLE PLAYING! seriously its childish. of cos... they are ppl who are not like that... im not talking about them. im just stating the general trend. anyway... they are butches who have damn feminine character lah... so bottom line is homosexual means homosexual... a pussy and a pair of boobs will do... whatever the role is, i dont give a damn. (omg how crude is that?!)

like i said, i'm feeling high now. am drunk and on estacy.

and today... i saw a cute butch... xh said her personality sucks... oh come on which butch doesnt? and then there's my siao mei mei.

life is great when u know how to play. screw sch work.

went settler's with suan and xh. we should go there more often. am in love with cranium once again.

went for netball training. and sucks. played netball with my fucking makeup on. cos i went for interview in the morning... fuck. having pimple outbreak now.

project meeting tmr. argh. sianz.



in the car. was supposed to go sentosa but it was abit too late. cos xh ended work at 3 plus. and the weather wasnt fantastic for tanning. oh well some other day then.



doremon and us.


queueing up to buy 4d.


hmm cool.


another one. cool... damn cool lah. with that pair of adidas shades.


i'm just wondering how many girls will be wowed by her if she's umpiring on court.


another cool fella.

if you ppl noticed, there isnt any photo of me in shades. cos i deleted them. sucks. i looked damn awful in yirang's shades.

22nd February 06, Wednesday 2:09am

after a long time, finally met up with my piggy for tissue prata at the prata place.


fia fia, me and piggy. i look kinda sporty in cap rite? anyway... we ate alot that night. from tissue prata to cheese prata to seafood cheese prata to mutabak to plain prata to egg cheese prata yadayada... the magee and mee goreng were yummy too.


goondoo ginna trying to act cute! ya la ya la she's cute lah. but she's not available! period.



argh. that' why i said i need to wear a cap. its either that or i'm going to visit sandstorm. btw... i removed the red eye effect for suan. never thought that i could do such thing.


in the car on the way back. that's what i call dangerous driving. taking photo while driving? hmmm....


what can i say? i'm khoo. *wink*


when one of your friends is sleeping at the back and the other talking on the phone while driving, there aint anything else for you to do but to play with your own camera.


i'm going daimlerchrysler for interview tmr. any idea what kinda company that is?! fuck. i had absolute zero idea when i put it as my first choice. turns out that cycle and carriage is its sub unit. yes... daimlerchrysler is the wholesaler for mercs and chrysler cars. ok i dont know other brands that are under it... but mercs is like WOW... omg omg... i really want the position. damn badly now. pray pray pray.

going sentosa tmr!! yippee yeah yeah. who cares about work when i have a date with mr sun?

21st February 06, Tuesday 12:18am

i'm forcing myself to finish at least one school work everyday. argh... its really tiring. i donno. having to push myself is just as tough as pulling donkey across the river. what an analogy. bleah.

on the brighter side of this whole sad case of being drowned by tons of school work, i went out with jace to catch brokeback mountain. hehe that cute queer heath ledger... i wonder if he's for real. ok i'm just kidding.seriously, what was on his mind when doing all those sex scenes. not that there were a lot of them... but still? having to cry on someone else's hairy chest? touching and kissing him all over? hmmm that's really something for him.

oh back to the movie, the plot was great. though the show was a little slow. i'm just not the kinda person who knows how to appreciate slow movie. but but but... if it comes with a good plot, i guess i can put up with it.

you know i really dont believe in fairytales... its too good to be true. likewise for the romance in the show. though it didnt end with them living happily ever after. its just something about the long distance relationship, not only that... both of them had commitments too. i just dont believe that love like theirs exists. oh well...

had fun with jace. that crappy girl : )

20th February 06, Monday 2:29am

tonight is simply different from any ordinary nights.

firstly its because i forced myself to stay up till now to do my BM214 assignment. and i've decided to do the ad on durex. dawn said its cliche. oh well since i've already done some research on it, i have no intention to change it at all. i dont have any ideas what to do on anyway.... oh and durex was chosen by fiafia. i stumbled upon this page whereby it teaches you all sort of sexual positions. to me its really hilarious. i didnt know there are so many weird pose. seriously i wonder who would really try them out. cos they look kinda off for me. to stay in that kinda pose? i'd be worn out even before the real thing starts. haha.

i'm happy. for some weird reason. i donno whether she'd be reading this or not. but yeah... talking to her was great. for the first time i felt that we talked about something more substantial. not like the usual superficial stuff. hmmmm....

strange.

19th February 06, Sunday 1:09am

The most beautiful thing in the world is worth every single second of wait. ; )

18th February 06, Saturday 1:26am

dinner cum supper with the family in nus, the cheese prata place. anyway in case you donno, the family is not my real family but consists of jy char(the grandparents), xh me(the parents) and suan(the daughter) and our guest, fia fia. am feeling damn lethargic now...

oh whatever...

15th February 06, Wednesday 2:15am

cute bung bung... haha. but bad complexion. hmmm... time for oxy.


ok the bored look in DOME. quite a nice place to chill out. i'll go there to study.


urghmmmm...


cheeky look. i can lick that up! *wink*


my darling laopor and i. her hair is poking my eye! haha.


i wonder 30years down the road, would we still chill out in a cafe. she's such a darling. my life would be completely different w/o her. love her lots!!! muack muack muack. haha. though its just one sided love... it doesnt matter! haha. *wink*


in mlt before account II. well i just gotta show off the power of my new phone.


eeee.... cheeky cheeky smile. btw black is in for vday.


char and i. omg... she's wearing this super duper low cut top. sexeeeey.... (ding ding ding!)


jy and i... too bad she's not in anything sexy.


my bb... exhausted after a whole day of work. poor thing. but still looks good in that white shirt and tie.


best couple of the year. hahaha... flowers are sponsored by jy and char.

vday was tiring. i donno. thought it was supposed to be fun. not that it wasnt... but i just didnt expect it to be energy consuming.

now that its over... its back to books.

h lhrr xnt zmc h vzmsdc xnt sn ad lx tzkdmshmd.

14th February 06, Tuesday 12:18am

hmmm valentine's day... why is everyone making it seems so special and important? its as though one would be tagged pathetic if he/she doesnt have a date. for your information i didnt spend my vday with anyone for the past couple of years. so that makes me what? pathetic for 2 years? well in order to save my own reputation, i'm going make it up by having two dates tmr! which makes me ultra cool huh? haha... i'm just talking nonsense.

am going to meet my laopor. we kinda arranged it way ahead, cos her errherrmmm is away. haha. have no idea what we're going to do. am pretty sure that all the tix are out by now. and flowers are going to be damn ex. and i have no idea where to dine. basically we're just clueless of what to do.

anyway... i'm really surprised that someone bothered to decode my stuff. and it sent chill up my spine. so i know if next time i wanna say anything bad about jace it will not be publisized in this blog. haha.

oh i came across this song while i was on my way back...

Everytime

Come notice me
And take my hand
So why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

Ohhhh

At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

After all...
After all...

13th February 06, Monday 2:02am

casanova i shall be. *wink wink*

heath ledger was good. i may be bias over here. love him ever since that patriotism show which he acted as mel gibson's son.

i'm off to bed now. chaoz.

12th February 06, Sunday 12:12am

i've always wanted to get it. like years ago back in jc... told my mom bout it. and she was pretty cool bout it. if i have the extra cash, trust me i would have gotten it when i went out with monica that very sunday. haha. anyway... i persuaded my mom into sponsoring me. well i told her that she and my brothers can share the cost and treat it as my 22nd present. and she said yes! omg omg... 2 more months, i cant wait! the anticipation is killing me.

no regrets.

8th February 06, Wednesday 3:25am

ok in the end we decided to go thumper... after all the big fuss. xh, u miss out a whole lot of fun. fia danced with a butch and i didnt. hurmgh! the crowd was good. lotsa cute people. music was good. way better than chinablack. i have to agree with fia that the transition was damn zai. and we tried chocolate martini... nice! very chocolaty... ah duh?! i'm thinking of going back in march... fia do consider ya? hehe.

damn tired. actually we werent supposed to go. i mean we didnt wanna go. i even went to school with my hair ungeled, wearing just tank top and jeans and my pair of slippers which was really a bad choice of foot wear for clubbing. i ended up having dozen of people stepping onto my feet. anyway... we went town for dinner and finally decided to check out on thumper. oh we went watson to "koup" wax. hahaha... xh taught me that! when u have a bad hair day just visit watson.

ok i'm out people. thumper next month ya.

6th February 06, Monday 7.09pm

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vgdm h vzr eqdzlhmf zants xnt azax
xnt vdqd cqdzlhmf ne ld
bzkk ld bqzyx, bzkk ld akhmc
sn rshkk ad rteedqhmf hr rstohc zesdq zkk ne sghr shld

i wonder who will really bother to decode it.

6th February 06, Monday 4:21pm

believe it or not i struck 4d. before my parents left for msia on wednesday, they instructed me to buy 4d for them. and yes my dad struck the consolation prize. omg! how creepy. my mom is cursing and swearing for not buying that number ; P

5th February 06, Sunday 11:26pm

her highness is back from msia and now she's nagging non-stop. i really hate it. its always like that. fuck. why am i always responsible for the cleanliness of the house?! just because i'm the eldest daughter? i hate doing housechores. despite that, i still plough through all the hardwork! i washed the clothes, hung them, ironed them, folded them and kept them. not once but twice! last night i spent almost an hour dusting the floor and mopping it! i made sure the dishes are washed and put back neatly in the cabinet. i watered the plants. and gosh! i have never been in charged of the plants and how the hell am i supposed to remember to water them everyday? and i've so many other things to do. so now she only knows how to criticise. dont i get a tiny winy bit of credit at all?

ok she just threw this whole pack of thing in front of me. i'm really speechless. i donno whether i should be happy or pissed with her. cos when i came back to singapore, i told her that i wanted those three books by dan brown: angels and demons, da vinci code and deception point. cos i saw the price tag on digital fortress was only$18. so i thought its much cheaper to get the books from msia. and guess what?!! my beloved mama bought all three books for RM105. GREAT! firstly, i'm already broke enough. i donno how the hell am i going to return her those money. secondly, i really have no idea when i'm going to read all three books. this is sooooooo agonising.

went out with moni to check the price for the phones. ended shopping and i got another set of roxy bikini for only 30buckies (60% discount!!!). i'm thinking of asking edwin to pay me since he owes me. anyway... the bikini is kinda cute cos its printed with big pink poker dots. haha.

and xh said that i'd strike 4d today. hmmm i think so too. why? cos i bumped into von in TAKA on a SUNDAY. i think the probability of it happening is equivilant to me striking 4d. well.. seriously, how often do you bump into your friends when you're in town. for me its hardly any.

so tired. and my legs are aching.

5th February 06, Sunday 1:18am

h lhrr xnt. odqhnc.

been thinking alot and i've come to a conclusion. stress is just an excuse. everyone is doing the same stuff. if others can cope, i dont see a reason why i'm complaining over here. an advice from a friend that has always been stucked in my head ever since the day she told me, just pick up the dirty clothe that is nearest to you and start washing it, ignore the whole bucket of dirty laundry. always start from somewhere, just stop thinking of the big pile and get distracted by it. no point wasting my time worrying.

something to cheer myself up --> i've finished my executive summary for fairfield inn. and i'm going to do my 213 stuff.

3rd February 06, Friday 2:34am

i'm supposed to be doing tutorial or at least be in bed... instead of that, i'm online going to upload photos that we took at yirang's party. haha. i love photos. they speak more than just words. and my eye lids are closing. damn tired.

rushed home from msia yesterday. if it wasnt for the presentation that i had for this morning, you bet i'd still be in msia. though, as predicted, i didnt really enjoy myself as much, i'm glad that i had the luxury to take a break from school work. no i didnt bring back any text book. to hell with those stuff. and i'm pretty contented with the fact that i managed to squeeze in time to finish one of dan brown's book. digital fortress. lovely. kinda spured me to read his other stuff. but too bad, now that i'm back in singapore... i've got no time for that. fell ill in msia. was in my prediction too. breathing problem. i can never ever get used to the air there... weak lungs and my nose almost dropped off because of the terrible flu. my aunt kept persuading me to visit the doctor. if only i had brought my pills there.

my mama is still happily enjoying herself in msia until sunday. hmmmm... that means i'm home with edwin. poor us... no proper cooked food. but luckily i have char and jy. haha.

ok the story shall stop here... i'm fuck tired... gotta slp soon. cont another time.



kissed by an angel ;)


it was really hilarious at first cos char had a lot of NG when we tried to take the kissing pose. she just wouldnt stop laughing. so did i. in the end we had to pull in someone to stop her from giggling.


and yeap... here it is... the one with the least smiling and giggling. oh trust me we took lotsa shots for this pose.


so i was wondering what's so tough bout that?! just a peck on the cheek! and i returned the kiss to char... errr.. sad to say, xh commented that i looked more like diao-ing the cameramen (xh). haha..


second try.. hahahaha... giggling started...


and there you go!


i just dont understand why so many ppl wanna kiss me on that night... hahaha... xh was worse than us! (fren you're the lousiest lah! hahaha)


the winner of the night! trust me it wasnt planned before hand. in fact i got a shock when i found out yirang tried to kiss me!!!! AHHHHHHHH. i like this photo! so lesson of the day.. ppl if next time you wanna take a kissing photo with me... please do not let me know... the result will be better that way : )

oh RG and AC.... hmmm cool!


jia jia and i


yippeeeeeee!


the trio.. "check it out check it out!"


(clockwise) pinky sophia the teacher, jieyun, yirang, me, char and xh the students.


freak ass! i was supposed to piggyback jy and she carried me up! i was screaming my lungs out. btw she's the first person to carry me that way! i was really really stunned.


nobody believed that i can piggyback someone who's heavier than me...walao! looking skinny does not mean that i am not strong ok! thanx yirang, for trusting me. haha. 60kg range, CLEARED.


after much persuasion and pesterings, jy finally allowed me to carry her. 70kg range, CLEARED!!!!


xh got her little finger injured for taking this photo... it was so funny. the first time xh tried to piggyback suan, they fell flat on the ground and that was when she hurt herself. hahahahahaha..


char and i. hey hey... both of us look cute rite?! you bet we do!


Brother! honestly i think i can pass off as a butch if i just keep quiet. haha. xiao mei mei will be mesmerised by me.


my bb is sooo yandao. and char is pretty too!


char, me and jy. why am i standing in the center? cos i'm yandao what! haha.


goondooo xh. silly me.
jy busy writing on yirang's bday card.