moni's bday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MONI!
am so sorry that i got my date wrong k.
hey i really din forget when is your bday.
like i said there are only a few bdays that i've remembered by heart
and yours is definitely one of them.
^_^
*
i really hate to say this..
i just read the OB report
and i'm not confinced by what we said.
so i made a couple of amendments
which i really doubt that the rest would change them tmr.
*
IT is so screwed up.
its just me.
i have no idea what is going on.
the fucking project it well....finished..
but honestly i did not contribute much.
and i really am praying hard that the guys wont complain to the teacher about me.
i just have this fear lah..
argh.
and there's a bloody test tmr
and not surprisingl...
i did not study a shit for it.
i tried but i had to read 3 times in order to grasp what the hell they are trying to say.
so there... you can imagine my pain!
*
just fucking screw everything.
am not in a very good mood anyway.
i have no idea why too.
its just me...
i have this major problem with myself
that up till now i still havent figure out what it is.
probably its the conversation that we had in the afternoon.
i just hope that its not true
cos if it is....
it'll be a nightmare for me.
somehow i wish to know what i am really thinking subconciously...
i just wanna find out.
i wanna be sure.
like god damn fucking sure.
so tired of this whole issue.
ok talking bout it makes me wanna cry.
argh...
i'm going to bed.
bleh.

2 become 1

Come a little bit closer baby, get it on, get it on

'cause tonight, is the night, when 2 become 1

I need some love like I've never needed love before

Wanna make love to ya baby

I had a little love, now I'm back for more

Wanna make love to ya baby

Set your spirit free, it's the only way to be

*_* ^_^
what a song huh?
haven't been listening to spice girls for quite some time.
hmmm...
shall put it in my discman.

my teeth

side track from my study,
hehe.
been looking in my pocket mirror
(yes i'm vain)
my teeth is moving!
the two inner teeth are coming out.
straighter now.
woohooo...
am so happy.
oh by the way i've changed the rubbers already.
its green and yellow now.
i think i'll go for the operation.
yes i've made up my mind.
i'm going to cut my jaw.
i don't like to see both my upper and lower teeth when i smile.
it makes me look like i have super big mouth lah.
eeeee.....
ok back to the econs text book.
chaoz.

stressed

i'm screaming my lungs out within me..
i'm breaking apart.
for a second i thought the world is going to crash on me.
everything is collapsing.
*
my mom is mad.
maybe its her pms.
or maybe not.
whatever it is...
she's giving me a hard time.
blame it on me for not spending enough time with her.
bleh...
my fault.
end of story.
*
ob project is really a chore.
well which project is not?
ob sucks right to the core.
all thanx to the dumb ass tutor.
*
IT project is killing me too.
fuck.
why cant the guys just do the blardy power point.
i really have no idea how to come up with that piece of shit.
"its only one slide..."
fuck!
then why cant you just blardy hell do it!
i'm more than willing to do what i can...
i can key in datas but not draw diagrams lah!
assholes!
i've got 3 tests and ob report to pass up next week
and how am i suppose to spare that 10min (which that asshole claimed to be) to do the slide?
seriously i think i might need an hour or so to do it.
walao...
i left that seminar room already lor!
i was outside!
argh....
FARRRRRRRRRRRRRRKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!
*
i'm so fucking pissed
with everything!
*
on a lighter note,
that reenactment was really SWEEeeeeeeeT....
know what?
i actually had an entry about that ice-cream delivery a year and a half ago...
if my previous blog wasnt hacked,
i would copy and paste it here.
*muack*
; p

waiting for you

Calling out your name
Your face is everywhere
I'm reaching out to you
To find that you're not there
I wake up every night
To see the state I'm in
It's like an endless fight
I never seem to win

lazy me

been PROCRASCINATING!
my my my...
exam is so near yet i am still slacking around.
i know i've been saying this..
but ya..
just to remind myself -->
i ought to get my ass on the chair and start mugging!
bleah.
*
brunch at dan was well pretty good.
i think they serve the biggest pan caked in town.
gosh.
i'm sick of pan cakes now.
hmmm i would be eating pasta now if not for someone's forgetfulness.
-_-
argh...
i'm craving for pasta!
*
got my phone back.
FINALLY.
din get to transfer all the photos from jacq's phone to mine.
too many of them.
i had no idea which to send.
bleh.
i want a new phone!
T610's resolution sucks man.
and the memory is so small.
i don like!
N7270.........
(drooling)
*
dear moni,
i'm sure of what i don't want...
been at the rock bottom before,
so no hurt is gonna be any worst than that.
: )

back home

ok this entry is gonna be pretty long...
*
dear red devil #1,
we havent been meeting up this week,
cos
firstly its still the start of the week,
secondly you've been skipping lessons!
(i was in sch at 9plus today! and you were supposed to have biz law tut?)
haha...
i still treasure and love you as much as ever.
cant you see my love anymore?
or maybe i havent been showing enough to you?
ok my bad.
forgive me k.
i'll be more sensitive.
love you dearie.
*
dear red devil #2,
i'm glad we talked it out today.
i'm no longer in my shell.
we can even share some info next time.
wuahahaha...
the conversation was pretty funny though.
all thanx to esther lah!
anyway,
life is just fucking unfair.
we both know it too well..
i remember someone once said that
"love is not the only thing
and neither is happiness."
(actually, i don't quite understand too. that's why i don't play by that rule. but i guess it means that we can't be selfish. we have to think about other factors and for those who are involved in whatever shit it is.)
haiz... dearie
like i said if only things are much more simpler.
well if only he is not a fucking bastard.
opps haha.
aiya..
at the end of the day,
you know wenya and i love you so much
that we dont wanna see you being hurt by him and having to cry your heart out.
argh... if you do,
I WILL SLAP HIM LAH!
i might plan a revenge for you.. hahaha..
haiz... life!
2 cent worth of advice from miss khoo,
don't take everything too seriously,
or else you'll miss out alot..
*
saw esther in school...
haiz... had a life lesson from my senior.
gosh...
as much as i wanna take her advice,
i think it's pretty bull shit and
it simply contradicts what i believe lah.
and why do ppl think that i'm freaking decent and too immature?
ok maybe not immature, "too young" to make good/right decisions.
and i dont hate anyone lah!!!
whatever that is over is over.
i guess i'd be more than willing to say hi
if i ever see her.
*
argh this is crazy...
i had a dream..
or should i say a nightmare?
i hope i'm not being haunted by the past.
it felt so real.
the hurt pierced right through the heart.
why did i allow myself to be in that situation
even in my dream!
freak.
*
miss my mom.
hehe.
the first the that she said when she saw me entering the house was
"errr...are you sure you enter the right house?"
i found it funny though.
i have no idea why.
haha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EDWIN!

sunday

dear red devil#2,
i just read your blog.
welcome to my world...
the world of branded goods.
hooolaaaalahhhhh....
by the way..
i'm freaking jealous that you are getting your LVs at half price!
so i presume you went out with mr rain.
enjoyed yourself?
better be.
oh...
it'll be very nice of you to get me and red devil#1
a LV coin pouch each.
*BIG BIG WINK*
haha...
*
my muscles are aching like hell...
the ache is sickening.
am glad that my mom understands.
hmmm...
my mom just talked to me bout theresa.
well actually she kinda made a comparison.
freak.
she said that theresa is a much better girl than me!
i was -_-
wth.
of cos i asked her why she said that.
and the reasons were...
1. i dont do house chores.
(excuse me... i used to! its just that lately i've been very busy...exam is near the corner anyway..)
2. i splurge.
(hey i work to support myself. it's my money...btw economists say that spending is good for the country's economy!)
3. i'm unreasonable.
(well...i can be VERY nice and super understanding if i want to. it depends on who and when lah.)
4. theresa wakes up early to help the family
(oh i really gotta say this, if my mom opens a shop for me to run, YOU BET I WILL WAKE UP EARLY MAN! that is the only source of income for theresa. my mom thought i dont know..walao eh.)
*
well well well....
i still do think that i'm the best daughter on earth.
no one loves my mom as much as i do.
hehe..
*
tmr's the 21st.
freak.
i gotta buy a present.
damn damn damn
i'm freaking broke.
thought i'd be getting my pay today.
sob sob..
i cant wait for next week man.
it's pay day week!
yeah yeah yeah..
dearies shall we pamper ourselves with swensen?
i saw the pay list...
we'll be more than 100buckaroos richer by next week!
oh back to the 21st,
i have no idea why so many people's bday fall on that date.
why?!
edwin's (of cos that's the first on the list)
ken's
valencia's
vik's
should i get something for vik?
afterall..he's my charlie..
hmmm...
and ken...
i think we stopped exchanging pressy since sec4?
the last pressy that he gave me was a hello kitty mirror which i'm still using.
haha.
*
k i'm going to bed.
shall wake up early tmr to study econs.
it's the only module that i'm confident in scoring.
THAT IS IF I STUDY FOR IT!
*
i hate missing someone.
i feel helpless.
like there's nothing much that i can do.
while i watch the tv,
i think of you.
when i eat,
i remember what you said.
when i'm lying on my bed,
i feel like hugging you.
even when i blog,
i just have to talk bout you.
(ps: i tried not to be too casual with my english! i hope there isnt any errors!)

hate you

i'm tired.
body and mind.
*
why can't i have just my mom and my brothers?
everything would be so much simpler
i just wish that you and your troubles will vanish right in front of me.
i hate to see you.
the anger that is within me is burning so strongly.
i foresee myself shouting at you one of these days.
fuck.
*
as usual,
i shall go to bed...
it's the only time that i don't have to think.

my day.

Surprisingly
After my bath I am so awake now.
Shall go for my 6 o'clock tuition then.
Hehe.
*
had street netball at civic plaza just now.
The games were fun.
And I think my team did pretty alrite.
We won 2 games out of 3.
Actually there was another game
But I kinda chicken out.
Din feel like playing againt "the extremes"
Yeaks.
Got a few scoldings from xh of cos.
It’s always like that.
Cos when she puts in effort,
She expects others do too.
Not that I don't
Just that I never put in as much as what she expects me to.
And I'm damn blur on court!
Freak.
Why? Oh why??
I never know where exactly to run…
i don't hold my position firmly…
damn lembek!
That's why I got so intimidated by "the extremes"
Eeeeee…
But… I gotta say that…
My shooting wasn't that bad after all…
accuracy was bout 80% I guess…or maybe slightly higher than that.
Haha…
Anyway I don't play shooter 6 years for nothing rite?!
*
baby thanx for coming down.
You were my morale booster
Hehe.
thank god you only watched both my winning matches!
oh ya...
It was really funny that both of us were so freaking tired and sleepy
And yet we met up to eat together…
My toes still hurt. Especially the left one.
*
got a phone call,
(dearies… it’s the revenge.. hehe)
everything was FUCKING worth it.
I’m such a bitch!

dearie..
i'm upset too.
i know that i cant say that i understand what you are going through..
but i really hope that you would feel much better when the sun rises tmr.
don't ever tear for that ass anymore.
it is so not worth it at all...
he cant give you anything more but just hurt...
why allow him to stab you again and again?
you should lift your head high and leave him...
no matter what...
you have a choice..
do you still wanna be crying when december comes?
you still have us...
you wont be alone!
*
netball training was bad.
terrible.
got scolded by xh.
it was all my fault.
argh...
hopefully tmr i'll be able to play properly...
i don wanna be the weak player in the team.
argh...
i'm so screwed.

to my 2 beloved red devils,
i think both of you will be happy for me
cos i just had my revenge.
i though i'd feel damn good...
or rather the correct word to use
should be
SHUANG.
but somehow... i dont really feel that way.
i mean ya... i'm kinda happy
and satisfied
but definitely not shuang.
*
oh i went to watch this jim carey's show,
a series of unfortunate things?
i can't remember what it's call.
ya...
it was boring.
i expected it to be damn humourous!
haiz...
i almost fell aslp.
then again...
its the company that matters lah..
:)
*
surprisingly
my mom din nag at me.
she just came in to off the air-con.
how nice of her.
i mean really nice.
she knows that i cant sleep in air con room for too long.
i'll get flu.
and she thought that i was writing some kinda report
when actually i'm blogging.
hahaha....
moms...

hell?

i stumbled upon sharon's blog.
errr ya she's attach blah blah blah...
she posted this article about hell...
and out of curiosity,
i went to read it.
it was hmmmm...
just plain stupid.
somehow i felt that the writer tried too hard to make his readers to believe in the existant of hell.
though i believe in The Man up there,
i still find it hard to actually build a relationship with him.
it's always hard.
pretty impossible.
so i guess my name is not in the heaven list.
come to think of it,
satan might be waiting for me just like constatine.
haha.
crap crap crap.
hell...
ya whatever...
*
sherman is a changed man!
gosh...
i still cant believe what he told shilei and i!!!!
to think that he was encouraging us to study?!
he was really getting onto our nerves can!
freak ass.
i cant believe it..
no no no no no....
he made me feel so guilty for
pon-ning so many lectures and tutorials.
freak.
i know i ought to be studying...
but knowing is one thing,
to actually do it is another.
i'm a procrascinator!!!
a big one.
someone please help me....
i need ppl to study with me.
i need them to push my lazy ass.
i don't wanna tabao...
i am so so so freaking worried now.
argh!!!
*
ssshhhhhhhhhhhhhooooooooooooooo
all my distractions away.

dumb ass

i feel as though i'm the dumbest person on earth.
gosh.
this is so irritating!
maybe its because i'm deprived from sleep.
i cant concentrate.
biz law is a pain in the ass.
i just wanna sleep.
sleeping is a good therapy for me
when my life is crashing on me.
such a fucked up life.
i don understand.
I SERIOUSLY DONT!
FARK!
lee xun hui i need your fucking shoulder lah!

fuck life

I think I said the most hurtful thing to my mom.
Quoted from red devil#1 (edited by me) :
"girls become lesbians because of asshole like him"
my mom was of cos speechless.
Am feeling guilty now…
I was just too frustrated.
*
my wish came true.
I spent a night at the ECP.
Haha.
I think I'm mad.
Sun rise wasn't that great afterall.
Darn.
*
today is definitely not a very good day for me.
Am so grouchy that I called xh up.
Nagged..
whined..
complained..
what else?
If only you could meet up with me...
i need your shoulder... freny.
Love ya.
Shall see you on Friday.
Cant wait.

PMS

period is coming.
so ppl don come and irritate me.
biz law lecture was a torture.
i was running out of patience.
my damn slipper's stripe broke outside the LT.
GREAT!
luckily Huiwen's friend offered to lend me her slippers.
but i had to walk bare footed to hall 7.
how pissing was that?
as though that was not enough,
i couldn't find any decent slippers in JP.
like what the hell?!
i hate cheap quality stuffs!!!!
is it me or just the slippers?
i spoilt 2 pairs of DMKs and
now it's Charles and Keith's.
fuck lah.
that is like 70bucks down the drain.
so now do you believe me that brand does matter?
i'm going to pon tmr's lectures
and get my ass down to town
to get a decent pair of M)phosis slippers.
i'm just super pissed, irritated and depressed?
this is just SOOOOOO annoying!
i'm having a problem with myself again.
my mom is kinda angry with me now
cos i showed her my monthly attitude.
and SHITTY LEE XUN HUI hasnt reply my damn msg!
i'm going to bed lah!
fuck everyone and everything!
(especially slippers!)

super sianz...

miss lee xun hui
is such an annoying person!
obviously she has forgotten about her best friend over here.
been msging her
asking her about the street netball stuff..
but my dearest friend just happily ignore my msg.
am so gonna blardy kick her fat ass when i get to see her.
damn her.
well come to think of it...
she might be spending every minute of free time that she has with her lao po.
I AM FREAKING JEALOUS LAH!
i shall own her discman then...
they say if you can't own someone's heart or not even the person herself,
just own the most valuable things that she has..
obviously i can't have her car,
so i shall just be contented with her discman.
hahahaha....
ok i'm so crapping over here.
am in the fal...
super boring.
3 more hours to biz law.
ZZZzzzzzzz.....
*
guess what?!
i read this friend's blog.
she wrote about her day out yadahyadah..
but the thing is....
she spent the day like a QUEEN!
and i really mean it when i said queen.
her ex spent over $1000 on her!
wtF.
why no one spends a thousand buckaroos on me?
her shopping spree is the real shopping spree man..
oh they rented this merc! private merc with a chauffer!!!
fuck.
to think that i was freaking happy when i pampered myself with 44dollars worth of perlini stuffs yesterday?!
life is fucking unfair!
*
ok lah...
money is not everything.
my red devil#1 is right...
the happiness that one buys..
is never gonna last long.
it holds no true meaning.
i'd rather eat at some hawker centre with great companies.
speaking of which,
baby,honey and sweetie... shall we go for supper again?

i'm back to the waking-up-early-to-study stage..
it would have been much more productive
if there isn't any distractions.
haiz...
what can i say?
*
am so hungry that i feel like...
fainting.

grouchy me.

Argh!
I’m grouchy again.
I am deprived from sleep lah.
This is bad…
I wanted to take a nap after my tuition
But Edward wanted me to accompany him to ntu…
Wth?!
Going to sch on a Sunday AGAIN?!
This is crazy man
Boohoohoo…
When can I have a normal time table?
Like at least 8 hrs of sleep every night?
I’m gonna be a panda…
Well I think I am already one.
Bleh…

for my baby

as i've said,
this is specially written for you,
my dearest cute baby.
since you have my blog add now,
i can't possibly stop you from reading it
so i shall just live with it! argh.
evil you stop teasing me k.
i'm not gonna be feeling embarrass in front of you anymore.
i'm a daring and adventurous girl. hehe.
arent you flattered that i told my friends that you are cute?
you must be smiling happily to yourself lah! haha.
anyway...
you really made me feel very special.
thanx for
the pasta.(it was exceptionally delicious.)
tucking me to bed(i felt like a princess.)
and
your green weird smelling lotion.
i hope the font is big enough for your mimi eyes -_-
and the colour is soothing to them too.
*wink* hehe.
*
sun tanning was great with the company of my 2 devils.
mr sun was so nice to all of us.
now i'm like a super red lobster. haha.
my body is still giving out heat,
no matter how much aloe vera i put,
it just doesnt help.
how?
i need ice!
oh ya...i just realise my lips are burnt too.
darn.
*
i just got home from chinatown.
it was my first time going k-box.
k-ing songs is never my cuppa tea.
but i have no idea why edmund managed to persuade me...
haiz haiz haiz...
but i did have fun lah...
oh ya before i forget,
baby while i was k-ing songs with my friends,
i suddenly remember you singing "this love"
while doing your fyp!
that was so funny.
wuahahaha...
in case you do not know,
i don't snore while i sleep!
so you better double check whether am i really asleep anot
before attempting to do funny things like that.
haha.
so will you sing lullaby to me next time?
i don't mind listening to "this love"
:P

temptation never ends

quoted from someone,
I CAN RESIST EVERYTHING
EXCEPT TEMPTATION.

the perfect couple

i don't get it why so many of you said we are very compatible.
i really dont.
but i kinda like the idea.
haha...
if i can, i'll post up the photo.
if it were 2 months back...
i might have wild thoughts bout that.
but since it is now...
everything is just over.
but why do i feel that there is more to it.
my intuition is telling me that
something is coming up.
and the bitchy me is gonna be naughty.
*
i know we just parted like 2hrs ago...
but i'm waiting to meet you in awhile more.
just cant have enough of you.
bleh...
please tell me what am i doing?
being a heart over mind person,
i ought to have someone to remind me
times and again.
i don't know where i'm heading
happiness is not the only thing.
there are consequences to this all.
though i can't see myself being hurt at this point in time,
i have a feeling that i will...
we don't give any promises,
we just do what our hearts tell us to.
to a certain extent,
it is scary.
and i am scared.
i cant ask for more
neither do i want anything less...
i am selfish
so are you.
*
from the bottom of my heart
i am sorry.
dear God please forgive me.

sch

10hrs of lesson in sch is killing me...
when your heart and mind is somewhere else...
somewhere so far.

happiest day after such a long long time

morning was really terrible.
so i decided to go town to study.
called desmond up and asked him to pey me.
afterall he still owed me a meal.
i'm glad that we are still friends.
nothing seems to have changed.
in fact maybe we are better than ever....
anyway... i'm meeting him again this friday.
going to the it fair together to get mp3s hehe.
and probably catch a movie after that.
we'll see...
oh ya... something funny happened when we were walking from cine to wisma...
if you wanna know just ask me k.
shall not talk about it here...
too "leychey"
*
anyway.... i guess what really made my day was...
hehe...
when i came home
to meet someone.
i made someone waited 20min for me..
haha... felt guilty bout it.
am really really really glad we talked things out on the phone.
though it sounded stupid...
i truelly appreaciated it.
at least i'm not in uncertainty anymore?
why do you always have to make me laugh?
oh gosh... and i'm actually smiling now because of you.
argh... i must be mad.
MIND OVER HEART rite?
i'll keep that in mind.
i love the dics.
especially what was written on it.

Fuck it...

i hate you.
everything about you.
i can never get out of it.
if i can...
i would cut myself so fucking DEEP...
i cant wait for all the blood to be drained out of me..
i fucking hate the fact that
we are sharing the same blood.
i detest it.
it digusts me!
seriously...
why?
i dont understand.
i don see the fucking love.
i only see your fucking pride.
talk about respect?
kiss my ass for one!
i am not gonna be someonen nice anymore.
i am not gonna succumb.
don come and irritate me.
cos i wont give face.
just don't cross my path.
cos your very existent annoys me!
i hate you rite to the core.
I SERIOUSLY DO!
to top it off...
FUCK YOU BASTARD.
so what does that make me?
a bastard too?
well i dont really give a damn.

bird nest

if asking someone to fuck off would earn me a big bottle of bird nest...
i don't mind doing it everyday..
haha...
anyway i felt kinda bad about that.
i din drink it.
in fact i gave it to my mom.
such a filial daughter.
ya i even told my mom the story.

freaking irritate.

i am so sorry friends if i sent any of you the virus that my com got.
i am truely very sorry...
am scolding my brother now.
i just have no idea how stupid that ass was
to just receive some unknown file that his friend sent him.
anyway... thanx to his stupidity...
which boils up my blood.
when i'm already in a not so good mood.
*
aside from that...
*
i am who i am..
not easily convinced.
pardon me for being stubborn.
(afterall i am a taurus)
i have to believe what i believe..
cos that was what you said.
a line that was drawn
is the limit that was set.
neither is supposed to cross...
or else it wouldn't have been set
like TWO days ago?
i am happy
yet i know that will not last.
if only...
i can lay down
my pride
and
my fear
i wouldn't have been in this state:
UNCERTAINTY.
once again i'm thrown into it.
will you come and bring me out?
or
was it all just a joke?
*
anyway...
i've found my answer.
like 2 minutes ago.

missing someone...

sleepy and tired are just excuses...
*
i'm being such an annoying bitch today.
couldn't help it.
and damn...
i wish i knew what to do..
why wasn't there a good reason for me
to do what i really wanted to?
why oh why?

am mad

ok allow the crazy bitch to blog about this...
anyway why the hell am i asking for permission?
it is my blog afterall... crap!
*
going to sch on a sunday afternoon is not crazy enough...
try this:
went jogging at 10pm.. 3km mind you.
there...
i'm just not thinking straight.
(pun not intended.)
wink.
*
i am so happy that my baby is back to me!
love her even more.
thanx baby for your discman...
you do know that i own her during exam period, dont you?
had a super long talk in the car.
yes we needed that...
i just miss her so dearly.
*
honey... as usual...
u took forever to come down to meet us lah...
walao...half an hour in the toilet..
gosh.
u need to change that habit of yours haha.
and supper without you
is not supper at all
hehe!
love ya honey.
*
sweetie.... i love ya too...
do remember to call me out to jog more often.
i love that run.
though i was panting..
trying hard to get my breathe back..
it was definitely enjoyable and
i got great sense of satisfaction!
you know i can never do that myself.
3k... what an achievement.
we'll try 5 next time k.
*
don't you ppl think that i'm becoming
a
MEGA FLIRTATIOUS BITCH!
i am enjoying this little game of mine.
wuahaha...
i still have my sexy baby and pretty baby...
and
darling.
haha.
SO FUN!
*
PS: God please forgive for being so unfaithful...
on a more serious note... GOD pls bring me through the exams period.
i need to focus... to concentrate...
cant play so much anymore...
and from the bottom of my heart..
i seek for forgiveness... for everything that i have done wrong..
to be exact..
forgive me for sinning
everyday,
every hour,
every minute
and every second.

you made me wanna...

To start it off I know you know me
To come to think of it, it was only last week.
That I had a dream about us, oh.
That's why I am here, I'm writing this song.
To tell the truth you know I have been hurting all along,
Someway let me know, you want me girl.
Everytime you see me what do you see?
I feel like I'm a poor man and you're the queen.
Oh baby, you're the only thing that I really need.
Baby that's why:
You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night.
You make me wanna hold you till the morning light.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
I know this is a feeling that I just can't fight.
You're the first and last thing on my mind.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
Well I know that these feelings won't end no, no.
They'll just get stronger if I see you again.
Baby I'm tired of being friends.
I wanna know if you feel the same
And could you tell me do you feel my pain?
Don't leave me in doubt.
Everytime you see me what do you see?
I feel like I'm a poor man and you're the queen.
baby, you're the only thing that I really need.
And baby that's why:
You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night.
You make me wanna hold you till the morning light.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
I know this is a feeling that I just can't fight.
You're the first and last thing on my mind.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
I'll take you home real quick
And sit you down on the couch
Pour some Dom Perignon and hit the lights out.
Baby we can make sweet love.
Then we'll take it nice and slow.
I'm gonna touch you like you've never know before
We're gonna make love all night.
You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night.
You make me wanna hold you till the morning light.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
I know this is a feeling that I just can't fight.
You're the first and last thing on my mind.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
*
i went to watch a women soccer match at src.
i was warned that it could be pretty boring,
if it were really so, then i'd read my econs..
but it turned out to be the opposite..
well at least for me.
cos the person next to me kept complaining...
ntu was trashed by uwc (haha)
6 to 2.
darn.
still i found it interesting...
honestly.
*
tried to study econs..
not much was done
as i kept talking online...
shall go back to my book again in awhile.
*

guess where is the bitch now?
the FAL!
gosh...
on a bloody rainy sunday afternoon...
why oh why?!!!!
argh...

my love

one of the saddest thing on earth
is
to have just words and nothing more.

fucking foul mood

not slping for 22hrs
plus having to give tuition for 3 hours
will of course result me in a fucking foul mood.
pardon me for all my vulgarities.
i seldom use that..ya..
*
the thing is i hate ppl to come and irritate me...
seriously...
when i don reply means i don reply..
and when you insist on sending me super fucking broken english
that fucking irritates the hell out of my eyes...
ya you just get the fuck out of me.
so me being so lethargic and in this foul mood...
i just msg that fucked up person..
in a pretty good manner or i hope so..
to tell him to get his own life...
and while i seriously get my own life up and going
no more mother fucking GAMES.

fucked up

i have no idea what had gotten into me
seriously after the movie
i swear to god
that i was tired...
but i was just too engrossed or caught up
by stories after stories...
ended up i had to slp at 7am.
what the hell...
and now i'm preparing myself for tuition.
argh...
how mad is this?
*
on a lighter note,
i realised that ppl have so huge of a difference
when it comes to the use of a singe word.
the meaning to that word.
how ppl use it..
and what others think of it..
that makes me feel...
ohhh so small...
after living for 2 decades...
i suddenly feel that i've been living it too seriously
and that i have lose out alot of other .....
i donno...
is it just me or you?
*
ps: argh.
i have a problem with myself.
a serious one.

today is seriously a sian sian day.
i'm hungrybut i thought i ate alot...
hmmm....
*
dearie..honestly, from the bottom of my heart..
i'm so happy for you.
you've been waiting for that 3 sugar coated words rite?
haha...well i shall pray that everything goes on smoothly for you.
*
din they say that feb is the month of love?
*
yet i'm feeling lonely.
nothing to be ashame of.
HAHA!
shall just pampered myselfby listening to my new cd.
i guess that would be enough.
*
by the way...
i've been reading horoscopes
and each month they said good stuff about Taurus...
so i'm wondering when those prediction will come true.
*
and one last note...
i think i'm losing my style of writing..
sometimes or maybe most of the time...
i blog for the sake of blogging..
am gonna disappear myself for the next 7 weeks then..
till i'm done with the papers
till i'm free of mundane life
till i find true happiness
till i own the beauty of all beauties...
till then...i'm off.