i've got phone to use! and my contacts are back too

nanny jacq you are the best!
finally got the charger..
gosh... a day without my main line is torturous.
dear nanny thanx for listening to all my shits.
i don't know how you can always put up with my shits..
seriously i do think i'm problematic, troublesome and unreasonable.
thanx for sacrifising your contacts for mine..
(yes i owe you a dozen of green tea for that)
thanx for sacrifising your phone for me
(another dozen)
thanx for you tissue paper
(no green tea tho)
thanx for the late nite special delivery
and what else did i leave out?
erm.. lending me your ears.
that's a definite.
(by the way...i msged ace. donno whether i did wake her up for the toilet break anot. hehe)
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i'm having pms.
i'm so fucking
worried for my school work
frustrated with myself
irritated by people, by what they did
annoyed at them too
jealous at something stupid
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basically i need LOVE
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love from my friends...
seriously i need lotsa of it.
i never thought that the closest and dearest one would leave me..
definitely not in a million years would that be you.
but somehow...
i guess you are...(not literally tho...)
there are times when people don stick to each other that much anymore..
when they have to part..
when they just move on with their lives..
when they think that the other party no longer care..
when they feel that they are drifting apart..
just how true are all these words?
did i walk too fast that you couldn't catch up with me
or
did you just left me behind?
i wet my cheeks
for i miss you so much...
so much so that i never thought i ever will
i just realised that all this while
i've taken you for granted.
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fuck life
fuck all the irritating people
fuck all liars
fuck sadness
fuck loneliness
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i want to be loved too...
(dearie...see you are so not alone.)