i've got phone to use! and my contacts are back too

nanny jacq you are the best!
finally got the charger..
gosh... a day without my main line is torturous.
dear nanny thanx for listening to all my shits.
i don't know how you can always put up with my shits..
seriously i do think i'm problematic, troublesome and unreasonable.
thanx for sacrifising your contacts for mine..
(yes i owe you a dozen of green tea for that)
thanx for sacrifising your phone for me
(another dozen)
thanx for you tissue paper
(no green tea tho)
thanx for the late nite special delivery
and what else did i leave out?
erm.. lending me your ears.
that's a definite.
(by the way...i msged ace. donno whether i did wake her up for the toilet break anot. hehe)
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i'm having pms.
i'm so fucking
worried for my school work
frustrated with myself
irritated by people, by what they did
annoyed at them too
jealous at something stupid
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basically i need LOVE
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love from my friends...
seriously i need lotsa of it.
i never thought that the closest and dearest one would leave me..
definitely not in a million years would that be you.
but somehow...
i guess you are...(not literally tho...)
there are times when people don stick to each other that much anymore..
when they have to part..
when they just move on with their lives..
when they think that the other party no longer care..
when they feel that they are drifting apart..
just how true are all these words?
did i walk too fast that you couldn't catch up with me
or
did you just left me behind?
i wet my cheeks
for i miss you so much...
so much so that i never thought i ever will
i just realised that all this while
i've taken you for granted.
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fuck life
fuck all the irritating people
fuck all liars
fuck sadness
fuck loneliness
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i want to be loved too...
(dearie...see you are so not alone.)

shopping

now that chinese new year is over,
i don't know what reasons are there for me to buy so many things.
a pink coin pouch
a white mini bag (for clubbing?)
a yellow school bag
a black top (probably for sch)
Greatest Love Of All cd (cos i need love badly)
a getsby wax
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shopping with my mom was fun.
listening to the new cd is soothing.
and talking to someone cute is just a PLUS.

new phone for the time being

thanx jacq for lending me your precious new phone..
rest assure that i'll throw it against the floor a few times
before returning it to you.
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sent my phone in for repair..
a complete full body check this time round i guess.
lotsa problems..
warranty was over,
there wasnt any black and white that i had sent my phone in before..
like wth.
then again, to a certain degree it was my fault.
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"white noise" was way scarier than hide and seek...
i'm still having the eerie feeling right now..
shit!
stop it..
anyway jacq u were damn irritating for scary me!
damn damn u!
after the show i realised that i did not save my contacts in my sim card.
so i had to send jacq back to the service point to retrieve my contacts..
to sum it up..it was really problematic of me.
and jacq ur phone just died on me!
bat is flat!
how am i suppose to msg ace to wake her up later?!
haha.
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went down to boonlay to play netball with xh and some of my juniors and some others...
i found back the love of playing netball once again.
i felt tremendously elated when i got my first ball in
after resting for more than one and a half year.
i feel like going back as a regular.
pretty serious bout that.
i know i'm not superb in it but i just have this thing for that game.
have been playing it since pri5?
PASSION is the word.
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though i was exhausted when i reached home,
i felt good.
the thought of losing 500g was sort of my motivation
haha.
and i received an unknown msg
(if you still remember i don have my contacts in my sim card)
so i though well it could be the guy.
and yea damn... it was a guy...
an irritating long lost one..
how disappointing it was when he reveal who the hell he was.
i should have asked for his name and told him i'm not janet
he got the wrong person.
SuAn, if you are reading this...
it's your FREN!
your tat fren...
damn irritating... and freaky.
am dead serious bout the freaky part.
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on a lighter note,
i've got a free lunch for reading someone's fyp report.
hooolala...
dearies... if you two would stick with me on tuesday
and pon our lectures...
then you'll get to see my cute cute senior...
hehe...
am so looking forward to TUESDAY!
(ps: i just find her cute.. nothing else.)
and xh if you happen to read this...
are you vroom vrooming?

worried

i was actually feeling very worried,
as a mater of fact,
i still am..
but not that much anymore.
maybe its my nick that had prompted her to talk to me.
am still feeling a little high up in air now.
my econs notes and text were in front of me
but i couldnt resist the temptation of talking to her.
it feels good to have a senior afterall.
they know the best of what you should do in uni.
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on the other hand i was talking to fia fia and big head too..
fia thanx for the help.
really appreciate it..
i'm clearer of what to write now.
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by the way...
my irritating phone's charger gotta break down on me.
what is so wrong with it?!
gosh... i can't charge my phone
so ppl don't expect me to msg anyone..
and i won't be expecting any msges too.
until i get a blardy charger.

I hate assignments..who doesnt?

i hate assignments...
who doesnt?
biz law is killing me..
luckily my ob is almost done,
i'll polish it next wednesday or so.
back to biz law... i wish that i have half of what is in Patricia's head..
is that her name or priscillia?
whatever...
the point is i'm having a tough time with my assignment.
i thought i could finish them asap so that i can start revising on something..
well clearly, i can't now,
am procrascinating once again.
i was kinda complaining to my mom when she asked me to take a break.
the thing is she doesn't know that i'm slacking my ass off..
she only sees the working me..
haiz..
she told me not to get any Cs..
well if i have control over it...
as a matter of fact, i do have...
its just the huge lazy bug that is in me...
it's controlling every nerves and cells that i have.
i'm gonna pull up my socks when next week comes...
yes...as high as karen's.
probably even higher.
argh.
workloads!
damn.
come to think of it
i'll slog for 7 weeks
in return for
3 months of clubbings, shoppings, dance lessons...
basically the things that i wanna do.
and most importantly
for my birthday which comes shortly after my last paper.
it's definitely a good deal.
shall put up 5 As on the wall as my motivation
and a big birthday banner.

The angelic me

unless you are blind...
you would have noticed that
i had blardy hell changed my template.
i guess i'm sick of being a slutty bitch..
so now i'm an angelic bitch...
for the time being i'm in love with it.
i guess my life is turning to the black and white kind..
colourless..
when i was browsing for template...
colours are out...
too eyes-hurting...
i need something peaceful..
silent...
just this one.

pls remember to forget

i was reading lynn's blog when i came across this song...
almost forgotten about its existent...
when the music started off, i found it so familiar
but i just couldn't name the song
until S.H.E started singing.
then a whole rush of sadness just filled me
completely.
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在就要转身前突然又想起你
相遇的那天漾着微笑的你
那个微笑 还是很美丽
可惜那个人常常要让人哭泣
太耀眼的城市不适合看星星
就如同你的心不适合谈安定
谢谢你让我伤过心
学会爱情并非执迷
人改变不了改变不了的事情
记得要忘记忘记
我提醒自己
你已经是 人海中的一个背影
长长时光 我应该要有新的回忆
人无法决定会为谁动心
但至少可以决定放不放弃
我承认我 还是会爱着你
但我将永不再触碰这记忆
记得要忘记 忘记
经过我的你
毕竟只是很偶像的那种相遇
不会不容易
我有一辈子 足够用来忘记
我还有一辈子 可以用来努力
我一定会忘记你
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i did forget didn't I?
why bring it up?
why must i stumble into this?